the real reason why i quit my job
So I quit my job. What now? Well first, a little more backstory on how I got to that decision in the first place...
Have you heard of Jess Lively? If not, you should stop reading this and go check out her podcast, The Lively Show. She's amazing and I wouldn't be the person I am today if not for her work and approach. I had rediscovered her podcast just before the end of 2017 and was OBSESSED with her take on energy, consciousness, and neurology, and had been eating up her content and related topics with a spoon.
Here is a very high level overview:
Everything is made up of particles. Particles vibrate at a certain frequency. Therefore, we vibrate at a certain frequency
Your thoughts create your vibration and like attracts like. Therefore, positive thoughts will create positive experiences.
Getting into alignment or flow will bring about improved and increased results.
A little disclaimer here, I understand that this ideology is not for everyone, but as soon as I started learning about it, it lit me up. It resonated with me to my core, so I ran at it full force. If you aren't fully on board, take what you want and leave the rest.
Have you ever had one of those days where you're so in the zone that you crank out a ton of work and don't even notice the time passing? That's flow.
Have you ever met one of those people that no matter what they do, everything that could possibly go wrong for them does? That's being out of alignment.
It seemed very obvious to me that when I was in flow, those were the times that I would get the most done. I also knew from experience that people with negative attitudes seem to run into negative experiences.
There are so many different applications of what I've been learning, but I do think it's so interesting that principles of quantum mechanics, neurology, and philosophy can be used to offer explanations of this work and it makes a lot of sense - though there's not formal scientific evidence of it....yet!
SO, while I was listening to thousands of hours of podcasts, reading more books than I had in months, and talking about this topic incessantly, I was also putting some of this work into practice. What that looked like for me:
Reprogramming my neural net: basically identifying where I had negative thought patterns or underlying beliefs that were holding me back and rewriting those to be what I consciously chose, not just unconscious habits.
Prioritizing my alignment over practically everything else: my goal every morning was to do things that put me in a positive state.
Finding my why: everything i was learning was that your path and success is largely determined by the purpose behind your actions. I didn't know my why and, while I now don't put as much stock in this concept as others, that was a big focus of this part of my journey.
I worked at this from roughly November of 2017 through Spring 2018 and had some pretty incredible results. My anxiety levels were at an all time low (meditation just works, y'all), I was happier and more content than ever, I was so proud of my personal growth, and my urge to be a better person was stronger than ever. I felt more like myself and that was wonderful.
During this time, I had the thought in the back of my mind that I knew the work I was doing in my career wasn't truly for me. I toyed with the idea of quitting, but WHO DOES THAT? I mean, I didn't have any other idea of what I wanted to do. I didn't hate what I was doing. But the reality was, it was the thing that most pulled me out of alignment. The happier I got, the starker the contrast was - work was not fun and I believe in my gut that it could and should be. That when you're doing something you're passionate about, it makes the 'work' part a whole lot easier. After a lot of debate, I decided that following my belief that I could be more was more important than staying in a job just because it's the thing that society expected me to do. After all, no reason to stay is a good reason to go.